{♥} 12th July.

Tuesday, April 7

{&} bernice say ;

thanks to everyone and loves ;D

ber {&} bear.

bernice love everyone ;D

ONE of my belated present ;D

people ; photos doesn't show how i felt today.

only two words ; disappointment and humiliation.

disappointment ; in myself.

not performing good in studies and creating nuisance and trouble for myself.

humiliation ; the NYAA awards, i dint get it.

nobody even cared to tell me. wow. humiliated, but thanks.

during reading period, the awards were given out.

i've played my part in just looking at them taking an award i should have.

now all i can say is , put my certificate down a shredding machine.

the pain of you tearing it in front of my face would be much worse.

i have to put up with th urge of crying and smile.

i have to fake that i was reading actually im ready to pour.

nobody will ever understand how i felt.

th happiness i had in th morning knowing im gonna get th award.

turned into unhappiness which filled me to th brim.

unhappiness slowly deteriorate to sadness.

nobody bothered telling me that i was not getting th award.

when i asked alfred what time to assemble, then he told me.

ms yeo say you're not getting th award.

yeah man, thanks for telling me, seriously.

or i would be much of an embarassment if i assembled and returned to my class.

then me, meishi, wanling, michelle.L, jasmine, alicia were being called out.

all reported to mr tay and wrote statement forms.

about th dumb biology thingy. what th fuck ?

then have to report for one and a half hour detention after school.

went back class, lesson lesson.

amaths test, i was in a crying mood.

i dint have th brains to think, or th strength to write.

i skipped two questions, like, what th hell, im so gonna fail.

then recess, wanling and michelle were waiting outside th class.

after greeting mr tan, i walked out of class & hugged wanling.

then it was when i couldn't hold onto my tears anymore.

poured, yeah. i've let it out.

then i recovered halfway through recess.

that's fast, normally it would take me th whole recess to recover.

then it was geo, chinese, english, CME.

detention from three to four thirty.

i had to spent my bloody school hours without my handphone.

mainly, for music. it was super bored.

detention was like play time. relaxed.

completed some homework.

after detention, went compass.

then skcc. then home. then tuition.

then im here blogging.

i seriously have no mood, freak mans!

i shall end unhappily. D;

-bye peeps-

Ruldolph,

what a certificate.

Labels: bernice ; its just a cert.

♥ Loves, 21:42