{♥} 12th July.

Monday, April 20

im imperfect.

family ; a thing i realised th importance only now.
yesterday ; i was watching my mum and younger brother playing,
spraying each other with water.
i've come to realised that im fortunate to be in this family.
Abuse doesn't surface in our family.
i've parents and two brothers who would care for me.
brothers, occasionally.
my family is rich , but not TOO rich.
which was enough for me to have my own room.
no worries having three meals a day.
credits would mostly go to my mum.
But dad, he suffered all sorts of pain.
that me as a daughter would never understand or experience.
how i wished i would strangle th boss for making my dad's life so horrible.
dad worked so hard,
just to be able to give us more allowance once in a while.
though he dont earn much, im still proud to say,
MY DAD'S TH BEST !
my mum too !
th most understanding mum.
th sometimes unreasonable mum.
its an aid in our journey of life.
her encouraging words pushes me on into higher results.
i am a lucky girl i'd say.
a father who offs th lights for me every night.
a mother who wakes me up every morning.
a younger brother who let me use th toilet first.
a elder brother who pops by sometimes and buy some sweets for me.
a family of five isnt big, its just right.
all those little imperfections are covered up by th sweetness in my family.
i may be imperfect but my family made me feel im th best.
im fortunate.
,.
relationship ; a thing i've given up long ago.
i know im not perfect.
but im not that imperfect that im equivalent to a rubbish.
there's no way im gonna be somebody's proxy.!
and why let me fall for you then ignore me right away ?
i really give up.
this is just not my type.
two person walking on one road ?
one would be better.
i've never been able to find a guy that would wait for me to love him.
everytime i want to accept, you people just give up.
which meant that im not worth th wait.
dont wait then, im imperfect, and not your type.
single's th best, i guess.
sarcastic remarks push me back everytime.
i put up with it. now i shall put down everything.
and back off. as what i said,
"in this world, there are other Bernice(s),
i can ensure you'll find a better Bernice."

{&} bernice, the imperfection-ist.

Labels: happy family, imperfect me.

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