looking back at the photos at my gallery.
compare and contrast. i've changed LOAD.
last time, photos of me, my smiles were real.
now, they look spastic.
i dont know whats into me.
i find myself breaking into pieces.
i know, who i like.
but i step back. i took a step back and give way.
i did not dare to confess.
im so jealous of people who are much much stronger than me.
like meishi. she's so strong. yet i fall easily.
im so so tired. i'd gave up time and again.
forget it. i just wish i get my good temper and that real smile back.
i dont wanna say a word.
i just wanna listen & change myself silently.
i dont speak a word not bcos i dont care.
is i cant. i know i cant. so im keeping quiet.
i dont react doesn't mean that i cant feel.
i felt, that pain you've caused in me.
i dint know i would miss you so much.
i just wanna keep quiet. & stone my heart.
ruldolph.
i must make a life out of myself.
& not you.
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